trust issues
Something very bad happened to me today. But that's not what i want to write about and share with you all today. Today I want to put it out there that I want SO badly to trust others again (maybe "again" is the wrong word- I want to trust others for the first time in my life) More than that, I want so badly to feel true belonging in a community and be able to trust them wholly. I'm tired of the old cultural habits I've inherited. Specifically the people-pleasing and hiding one's authentic self for the sake of toeing some institutional line. A client at an organization I used to volunteer for once said, "you're a hippie, really, aren't you?!" I don't know what I said or did to deserve being put into that category. I've honestly never felt like I fit into that box. But maybe I'm starting to see that trajectory. Hippies are disenfranchised. Hippies reject the unconventional. Hippies pursue a state on enlightenment outside of the est...